The complexities and cost of having to cycle again, and the fact that we’ve always transferred two, but only one at a time has ever kindled.

Won’t it be embarrassing if it’s a big fat negative? It’ll be like the times I met a guy and agonized about the pros and cons of having him for a boyfriend only to find that he had already asked my friend out and only talked to me for so long because he wanted to meet HER.

Me? Bitter?

Anyway I forgot how much there is to worry about. This particular hormonal status… Well, it just is so easy to marinate in the sadness and frustration of zero babies, the fear of having/losing one, and the abject terror of carrying / having / losing / raising two.

I guess that about covers it. Transfer 8:30 am tomorrow.